The Days of Long Light

You,

the days of long light.

You always arrive so quickly,

and stay with me for what seems like forever.

You are not welcome here as you take away the beloved long dark nights.

I know it is because you bring to me so many requirements which I dislike.

Long light leads to much to be done of which I do not have the strength nor the desire to complete.

Take your light away and shine it elsewhere so that I may enjoy the solitude of my darkness.

 

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It is going to be okay. I will embrace you.

Of late, you have consumed my every thought.

You have filled my heart with fear, anxiety, and restlessness.

Today I have been filled with a peaceful spirit which comforts and holds me.

I will not worry about material possessions and things which I can not control.

I now embrace you with the wonder and excitement

which I once held when I was a child.

I desire the peacefulness, calmness, and happiness which you will lead me into.

I long to see my loved ones,

to run freely through the sunny, big, beautiful, daisy-filled pasture,

and to finally be at home with my Father.

My homesickness will be no more,

once you take me there.

I will be released from the chains which I have held onto since my Earthly creation.

There is peace in knowing that my death will only be the beginning of the life which I was created to live.

The Long Dark Night

You,

the long dark night.

You have arrived once more,

quickly greeting me with your familiar sights and fears and anticipations.

I eagerly embrace you as I stand at your threshold,

filled with the overwhelming dread which you cast over me.

I recall memories of uneasiness which I have beheld while in your arms.

You bring anxiety when you envelop me and yet I long for you to never go away.

I know you will drift into the days of long light and only then will I anticipate your return.

 

I Miss You and Who I Once Was With You

Maybe it is because I miss who I was when I was there

Or because of the innocence and carefree life it held for me

Maybe for what it stood for and for who was there

For all the good that happened; for all the memories it holds of my life as it stands for someone else

Maybe for what it has done to me to shape me into the woman I am today

But I feel…mostly for the fact that it is a capsule of time which I want to live in forever because I miss everything about you and who I once was with you

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{my first home}

Beauty in the Intricate Lines

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The intricacy of everything within our Mother Earth has its purpose.

We all are entangled together with Her.

The reasons why are unknown to us now.

But one day they will display their simplistic fine lines

And we will know our purpose for existence with Her.

Happy Mother’s Day to My Mother and Grandmothers in Heaven

and to Our Mother Earth.

Decaying Relationship

From afar I watch you struggle,

I am able to do nothing.

You suffer, cry, laugh, fight; but keep existing.

I know it will never be the same.

Empty promises, hopes and dream unfulfilled,

It was never the intent to be.

Resolutions on new paths in life are to be distinct,

They tear apart what was once so golden.

The tree will bear its fruit with positive assurance.

You see no further than yourself,

To know the torment that I contend with.

If only you would be honest with the truths and to me,

So that I won’t be deceived by you anymore.

The hurt and anger are cracking me,

Keeping me from seeking anew.

I want to discover a lifelong ally,

One who dreams like I do.

Are those lies you spew to keep me by your side?

You are holding me back from happiness,

Don’t you see?

I am trapped in your world and jaded by your empty promises,

And I desire to end this corroded intimacy.