I said those words to my husband the other day; he laughed.
I went to the local library to pick up a few things including a book titled Back to Basics. As I reached to grab the book from the shelf another book fell onto the floor right at my feet.
I had a really bad day at the office and the desire to quit my job was so strong. For several years now I’ve really wanted to stay at home and not have a job other then tending to things at home. This book is so very appropriate for that and I felt that God was trying to tell me to follow the yearnings of my old soul (because I’ve really been praying for some help in recent months). My husband just doesn’t understand and most others don’t either. It is a feeling that you have deep down in your soul for the desire to be at home. To tend to things there and to find fulfillment for yourself.
I grew up in a rural community on a farm and spent summers at home and going to town on my bicycle. I really wanted to see the world and to have a fulfilling job. Now as an adult I just want to go back to the simplistic domestic life. It is difficult, even without children, to have a full time office job in a city 35 miles from home and to balance home life with that. I never in my life wanted to take care of my home as I do now. And I know it also means that I really need to take care of myself because I’m really burned out. There is no fulfillment for me in a job outside of the home anymore. I know that the daily commute and anxiety and stress of that commute as well as the job has really taken its toll on me.
I’ve decided to take a little vacation this week and get away from the job and be at home to recharge myself and find some happy. Last evening I began reading this book and it screams to me to follow my soul’s desires. Selling that to my husband just doesn’t seem to be working though (and I’ve been trying for several years). I’ve even thought of ways to make money to sustain us a bit. I thought of selling photography, knitted and crocheted items on Etsy but after reading books about those ventures I’m not sure. And if you look on the world wide web it seems like everyone is doing it and competition is fierce. So since those things don’t seem to be working in my favor maybe it’s a sign to just stay at home, be me and find some happy.
Even the photo on the front reminds me of me. I love to knit and cook and bake and I wear my glasses when I’m at home. It was meant to be for me to read. As I read through this book I will know a bit more about whether it is what I truly should be doing for myself to survive.